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The amount of jealousy that I feel is amazing.
I just want to be happy with my ex in a romantic way but I shouldn’t see that happening, but I do. I don’t want to believe that he actually likes this other girl. I don’t want to believe that he no longer has feelings for me. He hasn’t proven to me at all that he has. It still feels like he does. The kisses feel natural, the hugs, the cuddles, the hand holding, just being next to him, fuck even blowing him does. This entire time he’s liked this other girl his actions or what he says proves otherwise.
I hate to say this but I seriously want to be ms. Steal your man but I don’t want to seem crazy. I just want him to be happy but it’s just so hard not to flirt with him, or touch him, or kiss him, or just lovingly stare at him. Everytime I see just even a glimpse of him all I can think about is how I love I am with him and how perfect he is.
I am willing to do anything for him just to make sure that he is happy, I just seriously wish he could be happy with me instead. The people I usually find attractive aren’t even attractive anymore because all I want and care about is my ex. Like fuck Chris Pratt, or Zedd, they’re not him.
Out of all the promises made, I wanted forever and always to be the one we never broke. Everyone is calling him and I the dream couple or power couple because no matter how big the fight we always found a way to make up and were just as crazy for each other as before if not more. We knew each other like the back of our hands.
He was my Prince and I’ll always be his Princess. I can’t be that to anyone else, I am devoted to him.
I want to be an adult and support and help him in his new relationship but a good portion of me wants to slide in and steal him back or just pray that their relationship crashes and burns. That’s really childish but I just can’t help but think it.
I’m really trying but he’s just so intoxicating, he gives me a natural high, he’s everything I could’ve asked for and more.
I cant see myself being with anyone else but him. He’s still my everything and I’d do anything for him and more just to make sure that he’s safe. I want nothing but the best for him. And I feel like I’m just rambling so I may just stop but this is probably one rant out of the many to come :^)
I’m just hoping he doesn’t see this and it making things worse. It’s just how I feel. I really need to sit him down face to face and talk about this…
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Lmao so this relationship failed, he played me, cheated and still is cheating on his new girl and in the end he hates me and I want nothing to do with him. After finding everything out I realised that this was a really toxic relationship with false hopes and dreams and that he was nothing but dead weight holding me back in the past. It still hurts like a bitch that our very last promise of “I’ll always be here for you no matter what, friends or more” is broken but it’s whatever. Life is getting a lot better day after day without him by my side ❤

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where-ismy-neverland:

I was the love of his life, his princess but he’s left me for another castle.
He’s left me here to rot away in his memory.
He gave me the world just to crush it all along with my bones.
He took away my knife just to stab me in the stomach.
All these promises just washed away with blood and tears.
Now I’m just the peasant that use to be. Nothing more than a memory.